Letra Positive Spearhead

Positive

Make me, make me sweat
Til Im wet, til Im dry
But then wipe this tear from my eye
Havent felt this warm in a long time
Even out in the bright sunshine
In lifetime of springtimes

I fall into your arms
With my heart pumpin on
Like a bubblin dub track
Like a garlicy hot tonque and lip smack

I did some contemplation
Before we got down to this consecration
Maybe baby something in you kiss said
It was an impetous
For me to rethink this

If I love you
Then I better get tested
Make sure were protected

I walk through the park
Dressed like a question mark
Hark!
I hear my memory bark
In the back of my brain,
Makn me insane...
...like cocaine
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But howm I gonna live my life if Im positive?
Is it gonna be a negative?
Howm I gonna live my life if Im positive?
Is it gonna be a negative?
But howm I gonna live my life if Im positive?

It dawned on me, it seemed to me
This is unusual scenery
This red light greenery
Make me feel kinda dreamery
Thinkin how I used to be

Arrive at the clinic
Walk through the front door
Take a nervous number
Then I think about it more
About all the time
That I neglected
Makin sure that
I was protected

They took my blood
With an anonymous number
Two weeks waitin wonderin

I shoulda done this a long time ago
Alot of excuses why I couldnt go
I know these things and these things I must know
cause its better to know than to not know!

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I go home to kick it
In my apartment
I try to give myself
A risk assessment
The wait is what can really annoy ya
Everyday is more paranoya

Im readin about how its transmitted
Some behavior I must admit it
Who I slept with, who they slept with,
Who they, who they, who they slept with

I think about life and immortality
Whats the first thing I do if Im h.i.v
Have a cry and tell my mother
Get on the phone and call my past lovers
I never thought about infectin anotha
All the times that I said hmmm? dont bother.

Was it really all that magic?
The times I didnt use a prophalactic

Would my whole life have to change?
Or would my whole life remain the same?
Sometimes it makes me wanna shout!
All these things too hard to think about
A day to laugh, a day to cry
A day to live and a day to die
til I find out, I may wonder
But Im not gonna live my life six feet under

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