Letra Lies and sleep depravity Abandoning Sunday

Lies and sleep depravity

And I woke up with tears on my face.
Not remembering why I had cried.
Memories of you had been all but erased.
As I told myself that my heart felt fine.
And I’ve always been a good liar.
But my hearts always know truth.
I thought I fell headfirst into this fire.
But I realize now that I was tripped and pushed by you.
But there’s some scars that I just can’t hide.
And there’s reason that I can’t sleep at night.
And so I close my eyes and dreams of you come flooding back.
And I swear that you lied when you said I could never hurt like that.
It feels I’m the only one who can’t be happy.
Or find someone without consequence to some great extent.
I’ll be the first to admit I don’t understand.
And I never said that I knew you well.
Your so-called friends put those words in my mouth.
But I would try if you would give me the chance.
But you’re getting better at keeping me out.
And I trust you with all that I am but I’d still never tell you the truth.
It’s not that I think you won’t listen.
It’s just that I’m sure that you always knew.
And I’d be lying if I told you this doesn’t hurt.
I may be dying but I won’t ever say a word.
And so I close my eyes and dreams of you come flooding back.
And I swear that you lied when you said I could never hurt like that.
And I know that you’ll go running to him just as soon as he comes back around.
And so I make one last try as I may but I just can’t seem to get out.
Out of my mind and over all of this.
I’ll admit that my secrets are kept for a reason.
I’ve said it before and I’ll say it now one more time.
I’ll always be right here.
I’ll always be right here.
I’ll always be right here.
And don’t ask me to justify what you won’t understand even if I explain it.
I just want to apologize for the things that I said and your time that I’ve wasted.
I mean, who was I trying to fool, honest lies to myself that I ever stood a chance.
I’d whisper your name but the sound simply leaves me breathless, again and again.
Oh again and again.
(You’re my favorite honest liar) Honest become you, begging for the answers to the questions that you never though to ask.
Oh again and again.
And again.