Letra If you had been there Hestya

If you had been there

If you had been there, if you have cared ,if you had taken time
i would be strong i would be sane, i wouldn't feel so forsaken
i guess it is too late and there's no point to be, for ever going back over the same old story
now would you be proud? would you be pleased?, do you only remember me
all i need to know is that you remember me

i have spent so much time trying to recollect, all the smallest details about your voice and shape
i pictured you tall and strong, or rather coward and weak, anyway i'll never know what you're like

why it happened to me, not to somebody else? have i done something wrong, am i the one to blame?
who has taken my place, who is sharing your life, tell me who do you kiss goodbye at night

if you had been there, if you had cared, if you had taken time
i would be strong i would be sane, i wouldn't feel so forsaken
i guess it is too late and there's no point to be
for ever going back over the same old story
if you had been there we could have talk, you could have hold my hand,
lead me through life, show me a way, be a model
if you had been there, if only you had cared, you would have heard me
scream for you at night and wiped away my tears
i wonder where you have been all these years
tell me where have you been

i grew up on my own, i've always try my best, not to give in to pain, not to pity myself
despite the void you have left in my life, despite the lack of love, my bleeding inside

now that years have gone by, i'm coming to accept, i should not brood over my few memories left
i will not jolt every time the phone rings, i won' t ever expect you to appear
i will not ever expect you to appear
solo

i'll deal with my regrets, hope you will do with yours, i've been mourning for you far too long
and if there're wounds that time cannot heal, my scars'll always remind me what i've been through

now that i've raised myself, now that your part is done, i start a new chapter, my new life has begun
you're not in my present, you weren't in my past, you weren't there at my first, i won't be at your last